Now with that thing growing inside of me it is normal that i start thinking of all the things that i have not done and still want to do. Nothing like a medical scare giving you a wake-up call. Been waiting for that one for ages it seems. So at the moment my mind wanders round constantly and there are two subjects coming back constantly. Faith and creativity. My faith was never getting less but now with this development i feel that my life is not in my own hands but in Heavenly Father's hands, so i am handing it over to Him and i am listening. Even when it now seems that my life is at a stand still i feel my determination grow and i do make some resolves. So it is not a question of 'Why me?' any longer, it is now 'Why not me' and growing because of that.
Next to that i am finally able to pick up my crochet hook again, not been able to do that for about 6 months because of my depression. The realization that i want to leave things behind, things that i have made, because some strong. This for years has been my favorite quote and now it is becoming true for me:
"The desire to create is one of the deepest yearnings of the human soul. No matter our talents, education, backgrounds, or abilities, we each have an inherent wish to create something that did not exist before'.
Dieter F. Uchtdorf. I want to leave my loved ones and many others with things that i have created. And i will, so today i will go on with a scarf for my mother in law!
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